'90 Day Fiancé' : Fernanda Cries While Reading Emotional Apology Letter to Jonathan

Fernanda is swallowing her pride on this week’s90 Day Fiancé.

In PEOPLE’s exclusive sneak peek at Sunday’s episode, the 19-year-old sits down with her 32-year-old fiancé Jonathan to apologize after the two got into a nasty fight.

“I don’t want to get too emotional and say [the] wrong things, so I wrote him a letter because I want him to know exactly how I feel,” she reveals.

Jonathan, meanwhile, braces himself for bad news.

“Fernanda wrote me a letter. I’m thinking to myself,that’s not like Fernanda,” he says. “And I’m just preparing for the worst.”

But when she starts reading, he quickly realizes he was wrong.

“All the night, I was thinking about us and the reasons why we fight like that,” she begins. “I know every relationship has problems. I know all this is very hard for you, too, and I don’t want to give you the worst of me.”

“I want to say I’m sorry for my actions,” she continues, crying as Jonathan leans in to plant a comforting kiss on her cheek. “I know that way [of] showing you my feelings was wrong, but I just want you to see it from my perspective. I want to feel like I have you and I’m not alone in this. I love you, and I’m here because of you.”

Later, Fernanda says she has no problem being the one to wave the white flag in their relationship.

“Sometimes I need to be the first person to say sorry,” she says. “I think that sometimes, apologizing doesn’t mean that you lost the fight. Because he wins, I win.”

90 Day Fiancéairs Sundays (8 p.m. ET) on TLC.

source: people.com